Relatively non existent

[Rebecca]

Yes, even in my own life. Since the move I have found it difficult to connect with "me". I stay up late, sleep late and feel the dredges of depression taking hold again. It has been years, but I know the signs.

Why am I depressed? I am healthy, have my 3 beautiful children, a nice place to live and a good job. I still see my SO just not every day. The stress of his kids is gone. so, whatsup?????

I keep telling myself that tomorrow I will finish cleaning up the house, unpack the boxes, etc. but that just does not really happen. I write lists and sometimes cross off items - but that is usually groceries. Sigh, I don't know. Probably finances. That depresses me. I don't like to live paycheck to paycheck. I was spoiled the last 4 years since I lived with my SO and I did not every really have to "worry" if I did not have enough to support my kids. Now the heavy burden is back on my shoulders and I don't like it.

S'pose it is just the holidays - they can be overwhelming. And big money suckers too. Just need to find where I packed my serenity.......

[Rebecca]

Oh my Gosh! That is awfully scary. I am glad he is ok though. Thanks for the update - I will add my prayers to his recovery.
Yes, going to take a very quiet weekend at home. Well wishes for Liam!

Have a wonderful weekend yourself,
Rebecca

[Jill]

Hi Rebecca

We just had a shock. Liam who is Azzis son age 29 has had a heart attack! We were up the hospital all Tuesday night waiting for news. Luckily he is Ok but it just goes to show looking after your health is so important. And making time to relax and enjoy life.

So I really hope you do get a good relax this weekend Rebecca.

Bye for Now
Jill

[Rebecca]

Thanks Jill - its all very reassuring to hear - at least I know not to be so hard on myself then. I am taking time to myself this weekend. No commitments with anyone! Two of my kids are going to their dad's house and the oldest is working. That leaves me all to myself.

A good recipe for relaxation. I always appreciate your support.

Thanks
Rebecca

[Jill]

Hi Rebecca

A lot of the changes in your life lately even the good ones are high on the stress list. Moving is high up. Changing jobs and changes in your relationship is high up. Plus you always seem so busy to me so you may be generally run down from doing so much. So you may be getting some reactive depression from too much upheaval and doing too much. The holidays and money issues are also big known stress factors.

So it isn't exactly surprising you are finding things hard at the moment. I just hope you won't put too much pressure on yourself to do too much and take things easy. I still have boxes to unpack upstairs from moving in the summer and they are staying there at least until next Spring! It doesn't matter if you don't get everything done at once and the most important thing is your health.

Hope you feel better soon

Jill